Idk what came first the bliss or the thought. Did the bliss come from a thought unbirthed to a reality I can perceive...or was it as I perceived...a moment of bliss flowed...like a breeze blowing thru the wall.
As I felt, perceived, enjoyed it, the bliss came first out of nowhere (or was it knowhere?) There was no reason for me to feel so comfortable, so at peace, so happy inside in this moment...nothing had changed. I was just sitting here, the whrr/buzz of cooling system was coming from the vents...there was no thought just a bliss...of everything being right despite the chaos in our world, on our planet, in all our lives...suddenly I was light, at ease, enveloped in bliss. Weird. It isn't a common thing for me but it does happen.
The strangest of all was while walking across an asphalt parking lot in 90 degree heat and humidity sweating thru my dress.shirt.and suit as I headed to a government building for a meeting that I was thrown into to solve a problem that my company had warned me was insurmountable and not likely to have an outcome they wanted. I was being sent in to fail minimally, get something accomplished if I could. In that parking lot...without warning and beyond my understanding a breeze, a calm and cool enveloped me... I returned to reality in a packed elevator, in a sweaty suit headed.to the meeting. I was still confused and contemplating it all when I my name was called, long story short (yeah right) the problem went away, the sign off was done, and I picked up the permit.
Most often it occurs when I am on the road, hitchhiking, traveling or camping as I hang in my hammock feeling snug, smug, and happy. I feel a bliss, a a palpable comfort that whatever my current trials or tribulations all is right. Or when I lay down to sleep on a hard floor, in the back of a truck, or on the ground (with literally a rock as a pillow) and marvel at 'why am I comfortable?' as that bliss takes me to sleep.
Today I was just sitting here....and then the bliss.and then the thought.
As usual.when I have thoughts they don't seem to have the impact when I think about them as they do when I don't. (If that makes sense to anyone explain it to me!)
Anyway the revelation was that I have spent much of my life focusing on where I disagree with others instead of where I agree. And if I were to choose to focus on where we agree life would be easier. My problem is still that I often disagree on very sensitive topics/traits that I have such difficulty making a case to ignore!
But....with belief (not personal actions), with faith, or rather with interfaith I find it is easier for me to focus on what resonates, what I agree with and utilize that in my thought, actions and understandings.
But...with my own faith (Christianity) I focus more on where I disagree... I find that interesting...and it got rid of that pesky bliss.
As I felt, perceived, enjoyed it, the bliss came first out of nowhere (or was it knowhere?) There was no reason for me to feel so comfortable, so at peace, so happy inside in this moment...nothing had changed. I was just sitting here, the whrr/buzz of cooling system was coming from the vents...there was no thought just a bliss...of everything being right despite the chaos in our world, on our planet, in all our lives...suddenly I was light, at ease, enveloped in bliss. Weird. It isn't a common thing for me but it does happen.
The strangest of all was while walking across an asphalt parking lot in 90 degree heat and humidity sweating thru my dress.shirt.and suit as I headed to a government building for a meeting that I was thrown into to solve a problem that my company had warned me was insurmountable and not likely to have an outcome they wanted. I was being sent in to fail minimally, get something accomplished if I could. In that parking lot...without warning and beyond my understanding a breeze, a calm and cool enveloped me... I returned to reality in a packed elevator, in a sweaty suit headed.to the meeting. I was still confused and contemplating it all when I my name was called, long story short (yeah right) the problem went away, the sign off was done, and I picked up the permit.
Most often it occurs when I am on the road, hitchhiking, traveling or camping as I hang in my hammock feeling snug, smug, and happy. I feel a bliss, a a palpable comfort that whatever my current trials or tribulations all is right. Or when I lay down to sleep on a hard floor, in the back of a truck, or on the ground (with literally a rock as a pillow) and marvel at 'why am I comfortable?' as that bliss takes me to sleep.
Today I was just sitting here....and then the bliss.and then the thought.
As usual.when I have thoughts they don't seem to have the impact when I think about them as they do when I don't. (If that makes sense to anyone explain it to me!)
Anyway the revelation was that I have spent much of my life focusing on where I disagree with others instead of where I agree. And if I were to choose to focus on where we agree life would be easier. My problem is still that I often disagree on very sensitive topics/traits that I have such difficulty making a case to ignore!
But....with belief (not personal actions), with faith, or rather with interfaith I find it is easier for me to focus on what resonates, what I agree with and utilize that in my thought, actions and understandings.
But...with my own faith (Christianity) I focus more on where I disagree... I find that interesting...and it got rid of that pesky bliss.
But in retrospect, it wasn't such a bad thing. The heart was in the right place.