Hi,
My name is Jayci. I am new to this forum. For the past couple years I have been struggling with the many contractions that blind faith brings.
I've always questioned organized religion because it's to often welded as a weapon to control the masses. I have always felt a greater presence in my life, a loving figure forgiving and strong. Yet the leaders of all organized religions contradicted what I felt to be true in my heart. We are told to love God the father and that he loves us back unconditionally, yet I would go to church after church searching for that feeling people talk about when they find God and I never felt that going to a church. I have always had a problem with the hypocritical Judgements of people in each church.
So I started thinking, if God says "to not judge others lest you be judged", and " to treat others how you would want to be treated", then how could people that call themselves Christians pass judgements, make rules of their own, and demand money for blessings. How could the different religions create these rules like how to dress, what to listen to, how much to tithe, who to help and that other religions are wrong? None of it made sense. I found most of the time the preachers couldn't even answer my questions. That's the problem. I was looking elsewhere to find fulfillment when all along I only needed to follow my heart. I came to the conclusion the Bible is not God's word, It's mans. I believe when God instructed Moses to write down the 10 commandments that perhaps that's the only literal part we need. It is really very simple. God doesn't call upon natural disasters or kill our children to punish us because his love is unconditional. He doesn't send plagues or floods. Man just uses God as a scapegoat when we experience tragedy as a way to explain something people can't understand or because we are angry and need someone to blame. I know this because as a parent I love my children to much to want to hurt them so badly and cause pain. I believe man put that in the Bible as a tool to scare us. His gift to us is free will. With free will we created evil. Not God. So in my soul searching I have turned away from the churches and religions but I now believe in God more than I ever did before. I found that feeling so many others spoke about. I know who my father is and he is awesome in his love for us!
My name is Jayci. I am new to this forum. For the past couple years I have been struggling with the many contractions that blind faith brings.
I've always questioned organized religion because it's to often welded as a weapon to control the masses. I have always felt a greater presence in my life, a loving figure forgiving and strong. Yet the leaders of all organized religions contradicted what I felt to be true in my heart. We are told to love God the father and that he loves us back unconditionally, yet I would go to church after church searching for that feeling people talk about when they find God and I never felt that going to a church. I have always had a problem with the hypocritical Judgements of people in each church.
So I started thinking, if God says "to not judge others lest you be judged", and " to treat others how you would want to be treated", then how could people that call themselves Christians pass judgements, make rules of their own, and demand money for blessings. How could the different religions create these rules like how to dress, what to listen to, how much to tithe, who to help and that other religions are wrong? None of it made sense. I found most of the time the preachers couldn't even answer my questions. That's the problem. I was looking elsewhere to find fulfillment when all along I only needed to follow my heart. I came to the conclusion the Bible is not God's word, It's mans. I believe when God instructed Moses to write down the 10 commandments that perhaps that's the only literal part we need. It is really very simple. God doesn't call upon natural disasters or kill our children to punish us because his love is unconditional. He doesn't send plagues or floods. Man just uses God as a scapegoat when we experience tragedy as a way to explain something people can't understand or because we are angry and need someone to blame. I know this because as a parent I love my children to much to want to hurt them so badly and cause pain. I believe man put that in the Bible as a tool to scare us. His gift to us is free will. With free will we created evil. Not God. So in my soul searching I have turned away from the churches and religions but I now believe in God more than I ever did before. I found that feeling so many others spoke about. I know who my father is and he is awesome in his love for us!
