Ok it is taking me a long time to know how to respond here. Not because I don't follow or understand but I think some deeper underlying issues are still unresolved for me. And again, I am not trying to be difficult or play with semantics in any way with you. I genuinely enjoy this back and forth we have going, and I will try not to preach or convince you of anything. But here are a few things I can't understand or reconcile.
CRAZ:
I too have been enjoying our dialogue and it has made me think alot about what I am doing in these discussions(which I rarely do these days).
I did spend some days looking at different translations of The Secret of the Golden Flower and also a few youtubers versions, and find that I have lost interest in investigating the book any further.
I am sure the book teaches a technique(s), ie an instruction manual for practitioners of a path. I'm just not looking for anything like that.
(I may yet read Thomas Cleary's version, but not imminently.)
First, I appreciate your phenomenological approach. I think experience is the right place to begin. I'm just not sure it's where we can finally stop. After your experience with the Guru, I can understand why you would want to begin with what is actually experienced rather than immediately jumping into philosophical explanations. So, you can have experiences and mandala like impressions in meditation, no problem at all here, those are certainly genuine experiences.
CRAZ:
I agree that experiences in meditation or even visions or archetypes do not prove anything. I just think that these experiences were causal in many belief systems. That's what happened to me with the guru. Experience trumped any critical thought I aught to have had at the time.
Derek:
But even if we begin with experience itself, we still seem to have ontological questions (questions about the nature of reality or existence) surrounding the experience.
CRAZ:
Indeed that is the mature approach. Unfortunately, I was a 24 year-old with a very limited world experience(no internet).
Those experiences and visions in meditation-what does it actually mean to say they are "inside me"?
Simply put if 5 people are meditating while sitting next to each other, in all probability they would describe their experience(s) differently.
We each have own internal cinema.
If they are only interior, what then counts as exterior?
If I see a light or stars or a sun when sitting with my eyes closed, they aren't there when I open my eyes. The physical world around me is what is exterior. Is that what you meant by the question?
And what makes something "mine" in the first place? Love, beauty, mathematics, and even the laws of physics are all encountered inwardly through conscious experience, but we probably don't conclude that they are merely products of our own minds.
Well, knowledge makes something 'mine'.
When I was in grammar(high) school, I wasn't very clever, then after persevering, at 15, I made breakthrough in maths and started to study it heartily; the same with physics. Suddenly I could understand things that I was always struggling with.
So the knowledge I gained was 'mine'.
Certainly, the knowledge I gained was not a product of my own mind, but the understanding was.
I get you aren't trying to give an explanatory interpretation of experience, but that leads to my question of Tao,
Ok, I agree with you that reality is what it is. But then my mind immediately asks: what is it?
I think that whetever 'it' is, everything including each of us is part of what makes up reality.
So, I don't really have the question.
Because those answers change how we understand experience itself. If consciousness is fundamental, that points in one direction. If it is merely emergent from matter, that points in another. If reality has an intelligible structure, that says something different again. So, it seems that even the statement, "reality is what it is," still leaves us with deeper questions about what reality actually is.
Do you think deep descriptive questions of existence are answerable by humans?
Yes, they are answerable, but the answer may not be an objective truth.(imo)
Do you think our experiences reveal something about reality itself, or merely something about our own consciousness?
Well we may think our experiences reveal 'reality itself'. However I am unsure if there is even such a thing as 'reality itself'.
I'll have to ponder this.
