yeah it's about your username. Interesting view on reality. The inside and outside? Actually recently I have wanted to disappear from the wider reality in which I found myself, create a new one and become a new and different person. It involved cutting myself off from people I had known for years. I didn't want to be found. I wanted to destroy my old life and create a new one. I wanted to adopt a new identity. Salt becoming pepper, Dream becoming reality, reality becoming dream, pepper becoming salt.