No the truth is I encountered my other , he walked in told me he loved me, walked out and I have not seen him since. And I had a metaphysical experience when it happened.Your basic issue is this notion of other.
It proves you have experienced nothing of truth, because in that there is no other.
Even if you have had certain experiences, they are dependent on something, they have delivered no freedom for you. I would ask what their value is if they can go away, nothing temporary is worth much.