If you slighted me in some way, borrowed money and didn't lay it back, called me name that I chose to let hurt my feelings, punched me in my nose....
Anything that grinds in my mind. When I think of you or the incident I am irritated. When I see you it dominates my mind, raises my blood pressure. When I read your post I read it with a worse intent than reality.
When I choose to move on, get over it, forgive you.... You aren't even around, you don't even know it happened. I just made a choice.
And when I do that I am freed, thinking of you no longer makes my blood boil. Seeing you doesnt bring up the old wound. Forgiveness is for my psyche, my wellbeing, not yours, you could care less...
Perceived....often the one we are blaming doesn't even know they did anything...
Take road rage... The person who accelerates when they see a turn signal, gets mad when someone passes them. Gets furious when someone cuts them off.
Nobody cuts YOU off, they don't know you...they simply missed their exit and need to get over, they are late for work, an appointment or they just drive fast and are bobbing and weaving thru traffic...
Has nothing to do with you...unless you decide to make it so. I've seen people come into the office ranting about how they were slighted on the way to work...and still bitching at lunch.... Reliving an issue hours later... They chose blame, they chose to have their pituitary and pineal glands spew toxic chemicals into their body, they chose to have a negative reaction to....spilt milk.
Blame, what if instead when you saw that car zooming you just let off the gas and thought... "I hope you get where you are going safely"...
I got to watch this repeatedly as a kid. My grandma would get furious and drive faster than everyone... But when my grandpa drove and someone "cut him off", or honked while he was already 5 over the limit in the fast lane, he'd simply move over and as they flew by, wave, and say " tell them we are.coming when you get there"
Choices.