The I That Is Not Mine

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A Hartian Account of theosis and Nondual Experience
Excerpts from a long discourse available on EclecticOrthodoxy.

Q: When the ego falls silent and only "I AM" seems to remain, who – or what – is saying "I"?

The great ascetical traditions do not promise the modern self a more polished version of its familiar sovereignty – they promise its undoing. And yet Christianity does not culminate in the disappearance of the person. Deification does not reveal that there was only one subject all along.

What, then, actually happens to consciousness in theosis?

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Q: If the deepest ground of every finite act of consciousness is the divine Logos, if human nature is made for deification, and if Christ is the perfect transparency of the human to the divine "I AM", what should awakening to that truth be like?

In Hart's anthropology the empirical ego is not the source of consciousness, but a finite psychological organization of a spiritual depth it neither creates nor contains. But this depth should not be imagined as a second, natureless subject hidden behind the psychological person. It is the depth of this created life, whose consciousness is received rather than self-grounding.

God is "nearer to me than my inmost parts." At the root of the creature's finite "I am" is the uncreated "I AM", the Logos through whom every rational nature exists and knows.

In Jesus the human psychological consciousness is perfectly transparent to its divine ground. There is no interval of sin, no defensive opacity, no false possession separating the human act of consciousness from the eternal Logos whose incarnate life it is. Christ is the revelation of what humanity looks like when nothing in it resists its own divine ground and end.

Theosis changes the relation between consciousness and its own depth.

Hart, in "Roland in Moonlight" distinguishes the ordinary ego from a depth that is "I more deeply than the ego is I," and speaks of the "oceanic experience of the ego's dissolution into fuller existence." What is dissolved is not consciousness into vacancy, but the ego into a more comprehensive mode of life.

The soul acts as a prism through which the light of being is differentiated into the private experience of this or that finite subject. The light is universal, the refraction is particular. Mystical consciousness may therefore feel like a return toward the light before its refraction, without requiring the prism itself to be or become unreal.

To be continued ...
 
Continuation ...

Q: Suppose contemplation succeeds in quieting the ego. What remains?

The person? But the person is not an object sitting behind the mind after all other objects have been removed. One may search experience for the owner of experience and find nothing at all resembling the substantial little self one expected. Nor should 'person' be treated as synonymous with a natureless hypostasis hidden behind experience. Hypostasis and nature are inseparable: existence is always the actuality of a nature, while 'personhood' names a richer, first-personal and expressive structure of being.

The self is not an interior idol. Its deepest reality is participation.

Mind is a finite participation in divine light, receiving rather than originating the radiance by which it knows. If one follows that imagery phenomenologically, the contrast is between an opaque empirical ego and a lens whose very perfection consists in transparency.

The Christian mystical paradox: the self may disappear as possession precisely as the person begins to appear as gift.

Modern ideas of freedom are misconceived as an autonomous actor standing before neutral alternatives. The more completely an action originates from me alone, uncontaminated by nature or nurture, the more authentically mine it seems.

This, to the mystic, is unintelligible.

If authentic freedom is the will becoming transparent to its true Good, then increasing freedom may produce decreasing awareness of willing as effort. Action feel less like self-assertion and more like spontaneity. The good act happens from the deepest truth of the agent without the familiar drama of an ego watching itself choose.

Yet creaturely agency is not illusory. Divine causality is noncompetitive: God does not act instead of the creature but gives the creature its very power to act. An act can be wholly dependent upon God and wholly the creature's own.

There is only one actuality of being, imparted to creatures in finite modes, so that genuine creaturely action is the divine act truly active in the creature.

To be governed by pathos – to be merely moved or qualified from without – is a privation of actuality.

The surrender of egoic doership does not mean less agency but more.

Paul's "I live, yet not I, but Christ lives in me" is less a paradox of grammar than a phenomenology of perfected agency.

To be continued ...
 
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