I've always gone through life with a sense of future - of Fate.
Trouble is, it's always been difficult trying to work out the details.
I figured I was going to be rich and successful in media (not newspapers - media formats) and it all seems to be happening - though nothing like I'd have expected.
Oftentimes I'll see a vision of something but not comprehend it. I've seen myself working with computers and the internet long before I ever touched them, though didn't understand what I was seeing at the time.
A more recent example is that I used to try and work out where I'd live.
When I was a child, I remember writing my name backwards - Nairb.
I looked at it, and for some reason changing the 'b' to a 'n' - Nairn - seemed important. I looked it up and found there was a real place in Scotland called Nairn, by the Highlands. I figured I was suppose to go there someday.
Fast forward a few decades...
Living in the inner city of Hull wasn't much fun for my girlfriend, who longed for countryside. She's from the Isle of Man, but housing is so expensive that moving there couldn't be an option. Scotland seemed a good compromise.
It was a choice between renting in Stirling, or renting in Inverness.
Inverness seemed to call, but felt too much like a jump. Stirling was more practical - nice and central, and we could explore most of Scotland from there, to see if we could find the "right " area to move to.
So we rented near Stirling and drove everywhere except the far south-east and far north-west.
When we finally drive up towards Inverness I got a real buzz - something special.
After exploring all of Scotland, there were only two areas we decided we wanted to live - either on the Black Isle, north of Scotland, or near the Moray Firth, between Inverness and Nairn.
We went house hunting, and eventually found the best property in our price range. It had views over the water to the mountains of the Highlands.
It was in Nairn.
I'm still trying to peice together what my future holds. I already think I have an idea of key moments in my future, but have no idea how the road travels to them. I think that's part of the fun in life.
Even still, it's funny how I often feel a sense of future memory, but I'm not the only one - whether it's going places, or meeting people who seem somehow familiar.
Question is, how many people at CR feel that they can sometimes, perhaps without understanding it, access future memory?
