I guess, seemingly, i have been losing much knowledge of things i thought i grasped well. But is it a process of being ignorant of the truth or looking for it? My heart says let it all go and be, but what does that mean? are there any paths or religious sects that would frown on just loving? Are there any that would deny the need for knowing your father? cause that is what he must be in a beginning since. and since all any of us can do is grasp at clouds, is it not apparent we need redemption if not for our souls,then for our intellect. If elevation of self was a calling any of us could achieve on our own then why havnt those who have achieved it hitched us to there wagon. I guess maybe it has all been a big trick. With my knew understanding of what scientists deem as possible or even achievable, my mind keeps thinking about the possibility of some super advanced race, who has mastered matter, hiding themselves from us for millinea and with time travel and mastery of matter they dupe us into poppulating and repoppulating the earth as they see fit. I know this is real crazy but it makes me realy thankfull for redemption. If this is the case, this trick would meen we all have been seeking false gods. It would meen we are all making mud bricks, all of us praying to bulls ( or bull****). Who can no the father except one that is from the fathers relm. Wouldnt the one who knew this hitch us all to his wagon. and if this super race exsisted would that not be to much for any group of people from anytime to wrap there minds around. Well the truth has always been for people who realy want it and i do. But knowledge of this world and its ways is seeming to become somewhat of a barricade. We can never know any of it for sure, and when we are finaly face to face with our beginning im sure thoughts of this world will be fleeting. Remember then matter does not matter unless the matter contains a being. sorry for not proofing got in a rush