And I hope you don't find out for a long while yet!
I think the problem with memory is that it's always one step removed from the now? Memory is resistant to change, in that it tries to see new things according to old things ... things it already knows ... so the saying you can't teach an old dog is not cos old dogs lack learning skills, but rather get set in their ways?
Children live in the now, not in their history ...
Memories make us old ... from what I know of you, you seem a forever young kinda guy to me ... ?
Well I think we agree that hell is what we make it ... so what if our memories confine us in some way, keep us apart from what really is?
God bless,
Thomas