I’m reading more about Christianity now than I ever have and I am finding it very interesting indeed. Even if somebody doesn’t believe the Bible to be the word of God etc it is none the less a pleasant book. The only religion I have been interested in the past is Buddhism but although it still interests me I find it quite Nihilistic.
I have just started to try and read the Bible again and have almost completed genesis. I want to believe in Jesus and God and I do believe 100% that Jesus existed and walked the earth and did what he did but I just can’t get my head around the fact that he was the Son of God. Another problem I have is that some of the qualities required to be a wholesome Christian I just don’t possess, like tolerance of and kindness to other people is the main problem. I have a very short temper indeed and some people I just hate completely, when I am near them I just want them to go away forever and they make me feel sick. In some cases I wish harm upon them, I know it’s wrong but something takes over. One thing about Buddhism for example is that you try to make yourself a better person by meditation etc, you try and purify yourself but with the Bible etc I myself am finding it very difficult to put the scripture into some form of application into myself to make me a better person. I have felt the benefits greatly of Buddhist meditation and it did make me a calmer person when I was doing it, how can my continued reading of the Bible and booklets from my local Evangelical church do the equivalent for me? Is it possible and how?
I was walking in town over the weekend and stopped to listen to a Pastor from the local Evangelical church. When he had finished after 10 minutes he came over and started to speak to me and we had a very nice conversation for half an hour. He gave me some booklets on “why believe the Bible” by John Blanchard and I have read them and they prove the Bible wins every time when people have tried to dismiss it, proven by fact and history. It really cemented in what I knew already. In the booklet though it states that all the prophecies the Bible states have been proven to be correct. Can somebody tell me a few and provide a few examples as I am a bit confused and don’t know what it means. I’m finding the Bible hard to digest & heavy going but I will continue.
I want to believe in God & Jesus and sometimes I really do feel if they are calling me but I just can’t imagine myself singing hymns and praying in a church, I’m not afraid to admit I would feel embarrassed, shy and out of place. I wouldn’t know how to let myself go and I’d also be worried on what my wife would think as she isn’t religious and has had a previous relationship in where her partner, due to the religion he took on, got hostile and abusive to her. I don’t want her to think “oh no here we go again, second time around!” (no that Christianity encourages this sort of thing!) Another thing the Pastor said to me was that to be allowed into heaven/paradise one has to be baptised (full immersion) which really does appeal to me and I think it would be a really important and emotional experience for me, it must be a fantastic feeing and very powerful. I told the Pastor I had been Christened and he said it’s not the same thing really and explained why. He also said “you have to give yourself to Jesus & God and have the full immersion and say why you give yourself also, there’s no other way my friend, then you will have your salvation” This really moved me to be honest. After existing for almost 33 years on this planet it’s not going to be an easy task for me to incorporate Christianity into my life once I have contented myself on the fundamentals of it all. I accept Jesus but God is going to be very difficult indeed. Any tips would be appreciated. Many thanks.
I have just started to try and read the Bible again and have almost completed genesis. I want to believe in Jesus and God and I do believe 100% that Jesus existed and walked the earth and did what he did but I just can’t get my head around the fact that he was the Son of God. Another problem I have is that some of the qualities required to be a wholesome Christian I just don’t possess, like tolerance of and kindness to other people is the main problem. I have a very short temper indeed and some people I just hate completely, when I am near them I just want them to go away forever and they make me feel sick. In some cases I wish harm upon them, I know it’s wrong but something takes over. One thing about Buddhism for example is that you try to make yourself a better person by meditation etc, you try and purify yourself but with the Bible etc I myself am finding it very difficult to put the scripture into some form of application into myself to make me a better person. I have felt the benefits greatly of Buddhist meditation and it did make me a calmer person when I was doing it, how can my continued reading of the Bible and booklets from my local Evangelical church do the equivalent for me? Is it possible and how?
I was walking in town over the weekend and stopped to listen to a Pastor from the local Evangelical church. When he had finished after 10 minutes he came over and started to speak to me and we had a very nice conversation for half an hour. He gave me some booklets on “why believe the Bible” by John Blanchard and I have read them and they prove the Bible wins every time when people have tried to dismiss it, proven by fact and history. It really cemented in what I knew already. In the booklet though it states that all the prophecies the Bible states have been proven to be correct. Can somebody tell me a few and provide a few examples as I am a bit confused and don’t know what it means. I’m finding the Bible hard to digest & heavy going but I will continue.
I want to believe in God & Jesus and sometimes I really do feel if they are calling me but I just can’t imagine myself singing hymns and praying in a church, I’m not afraid to admit I would feel embarrassed, shy and out of place. I wouldn’t know how to let myself go and I’d also be worried on what my wife would think as she isn’t religious and has had a previous relationship in where her partner, due to the religion he took on, got hostile and abusive to her. I don’t want her to think “oh no here we go again, second time around!” (no that Christianity encourages this sort of thing!) Another thing the Pastor said to me was that to be allowed into heaven/paradise one has to be baptised (full immersion) which really does appeal to me and I think it would be a really important and emotional experience for me, it must be a fantastic feeing and very powerful. I told the Pastor I had been Christened and he said it’s not the same thing really and explained why. He also said “you have to give yourself to Jesus & God and have the full immersion and say why you give yourself also, there’s no other way my friend, then you will have your salvation” This really moved me to be honest. After existing for almost 33 years on this planet it’s not going to be an easy task for me to incorporate Christianity into my life once I have contented myself on the fundamentals of it all. I accept Jesus but God is going to be very difficult indeed. Any tips would be appreciated. Many thanks.