alex...
a person wants a religion... They want one really bad lol... Not sure why they want it too much... But, they do... But They don't have one... And it seems like they will never have one....
my thoughts?
Religion is like chocolate... in small doses, it is great- theobromine, releasing endorphins, potentially causing a serotonin cascade- wondrous stuff...
yet... too much chocolate makes a person fat and rots their teeth...
Religion is like a relationship... u start off not being able to keep your hands off each other, u want to spend every minute of the day with ur new lover... u can laugh at their bad jokes, ignore they've eaten garlic bread, still want to dive on them... then... this wears off, something else develops...
u either develop committment, love, companionship, get married, or u start noticing that their cute ways annoy u to death, and u start arguing, u split, u move on...
Religion is like society... it has it's rules and regulations, it's in and outgroups, it's shared goals and values... you won't agree with everything "society" says, but you choose "inside" or "outside" for yourself...
Realistically... people "quest" for "truth" not just for the sake of truth... it is best to see whether u involve urself with "questing" for the sake of "truth", or for the sake of something else, such as... belonging, community, a rock to tether yourself to when storms approach, somebody to tell u what to think, etc...
If u examine urself, and think ur motives lie outside of "questing for truth", then ignore religion. Take up an art class, go to the disco more often.
But, if truth is what u seek, then u will quest forever...
forever u will almost grasp it, almost taste it, you will consider giving up, you will hate it and love it, but the quest will always beckon...
and one day..? The truth appears...