so.. in relation to the question, it seems that you'd suggest that suicide is neither moral/immoral or ethical/unethical, is that correct?
As in most things I tend to weigh matters on a case by case basis.
According to my tradition, suicide is unethical and sinful. For this reason I do not advocate for it or advise it as a general rule. This is also a portion of the reason it should be carefully considered before proceeding. As I mentioned, it is a disrespect (or disregard if you prefer) for the gift. Perhaps better understood as squandering a precious resource.
I can also intimately appreciate extraordinary physical pain and suffering. My mind does not require a great deal of imagination to understand that debilitating and painful disease serves little purpose for spiritual edification. The martyr complex can be assuaged at a much lesser frequency and level. Even self-inflicted emotional trauma can bear spiritual fruit, but overwhelming physical pain leads to torment and agony with nothing of spiritual value to be gained.
It took a physical therapist to break me of one of my cherished delusions. I used to kid myself, "I'm a man, I can take a little pain." And a little more, and a little more. "After all," I reasoned, "women can put up with the pain of childbirth."
"Ah," she responded, "the pain of childbirth ends, and there is the gift of the child at that end. What do you have to show for your pain?" Nothing.
Needless to say I have not considered enduring pain in the same way since.
Don't get me wrong. Low grade pain I consider a nuisance I simply have to deal with. But there are days, when I wonder if I can even drag myself to the vertical. Imagining days like that as my new normal, is simply unthinkable. Until then I will continue to do what I can to keep those days to a minimum.