Why do you keep insinuating that Im into threats? You take obscure things I say and twist them around into a threatening thing? Have you had a bad experience? Or maybe like citi you are being convicted? No need to answer that btw.
FS, I think you think I am responding far more personally than I am.
First, I have no idea what I would be convicted of. I am honest with myself and God. I have faults and flaws. I work on them with sincerity, by the grace of God. I follow Christ's teachings.
So, if you wish to make me out to be some horrible Christian or non-Christian who you think is being convicted, so be it. Whatever makes your worldview make sense to you. I am not harmed by it. I am strong enough to withstand another person thinking ill of me. Lately, I've never felt more in tune with God and more at peace with myself... the way others think about me isn't of much concern.
Second, I am not insinuating you are into threats.
I am making a simple point. Fundamentalist Christianity insists on a physical reality of a heaven and a hell. Heaven is given as reward for upholding the right beliefs and having the right religion- being part of the Christian church, so long as one agrees with particular doctrinal views. Heaven is given out of grace, but only conditionally- and on conditions that privilege belonging to a religion/church and believing certain things, not on conditions of being a good person (the way the Jews and Muslims believe). Hell is given as punishment for the rest.
I call that threatening people and playing on their fears.
It makes worship and faith out to be an investment in the future, out of self-interest, rather than for God's sake. I believe we should worship and have faith and do God's will simply because God is God. Whether we are rewarded or not has nothing to do with it. I woke up this morning, and that is reward enough for me.
Third, have I had a bad experience? I am very, very familiar with fundamentalism. How is being told repeatedly, by varying churches, that genuinely good family members who just don't belong to the "right" church are heading for eternal hellfire a good experience? Oh, and then there was the time that a pastor preached in Calvary Chapel about how "
all of the scientists and professors" were anti-God and anti-Christ and how all of us in academia were headed for hell. Nice, huh? Maybe those at Cal Baptist U and Pacific Lutheran U and the other Christian colleges have some sort of out-clause? After years of observation, I was never surprised to see that when the sermon was on hell or the end times, people would get all emotional and rush the altar to "be saved." Somehow, most of those pastors and churches never got around to talking about the poor... even though it's one of the most discussed issues in the Bible. No one felt convicted about living the way we do in the US, when there are children starving. No one seemed concerned that people cheated on each other, slandered and gossiped, were petty. Everyone was on the straight and narrow path to heaven because they signed on to doctrines and beliefs like Biblical inerrancy and a 6-day creation.
One could gossip, lie, steal, and cheat... but if you believe all the miracles literally happened, well, you got the free pass into the pearly gates. Somehow, a Buddhist or Pagan or Hindu could be a great person, compassionate, loving, sincerely dedicated to their faith... but that just ain't enough. Without signing up as a member in the right church, it's hellfire for them.
And then, to top it off, it's not enough to be a member of
any Christian church or sect. No. It has to be
theirs. I worked in a Christian bookstore for years- at a conference center for longer. We had Christian booksellers attempt to sell us books that were for "converting Catholics to Christianity." Huh? But yes, more than one. And the Amish. And the Quakers. The list went on and on. I had more than one Baptist tell me they suspected the Lutherans and Episcopalians weren't Christian because "they're too liberal." What a mess.
Is any of that a good experience to you? I've attended dozens of churches, done interfaith and inter-denominational work for years. I've seen Christian organizations from the inside-out. I've worked in them.
I think there are many wonderful things about Christianity. I still go to church when I'm in my home-town. I read the scriptures. I pray. I love Jesus. My purpose in life is to give myself to God and to become more loving and compassionate every day. My library is filled with books on reading scripture, the history of the Bible and church, Christian saints' writings up to the modern red-letter Christians.
Yet somehow, it's just not enough, is it?
I'm still not the right
kind of Christian, am I? I just need to be convicted, and then suddenly it will all fall into place and I can believe just as I
should, just as I am told to by this or that church.
I used to be so sad that Christians would see me the way they do. But then I realized that the only opinion I need to worry about is Christ's.