Rather I think we are constantly confronted with the choice, to be authentic, to stay on the tightrope, or to lose focus, to fall away.
The way I see it there is no tightrope. Or we unconsciously walk it everyday without knowing we're doing it.
That's why I say that we have both free will and are predestined. We feel as if we have free will. We can't feel a pull, or an ease in the decision making towards a certain choice. We can't feel predestination at work.
But maybe we
can't fall away from the tightrope. Maybe, even though it feels as if we're deciding, we were destined to make the right choice every time. And I don't mean the right choice for
us necessarily-the tight rope can run through some pretty rough times while still being the right path-but we always make the right choice in the big scheme of things.
Even if we feel like we have messed up. Because we don't know what is right in the big scheme of things, right for us, or for the world.
But I have known times when I was walking an enchanted path. It is almost surreal and intensely exciting, which makes it all the harder when the magic fades and we are left trying to to make our own way through a land where all roads look the same.
The magic doesn't fade, just your perception of it. When things go bad for us, we confuse it with things going bad for the universe. Because we perceive only us, and we perceive only now. Bad times are part of the universe, and someone consequently has to go through them. Sometimes it's you, sometimes it's not. It's all relevant, and as intended.
You can't mess up an as near limitless thing as the universe with something so small as a wrongly made choice. If you could, don't you think the whole thing would have crumbled by now?
Hey VC. This is why I like Buddhism, it is all about accepting what is and not trying to turn it into a big what if.
A Buddhist, feeling surreal and excited says, "I feel surreal and excited."
A Buddhist, when the magic fades says, "I feel like the magic has faded."
A Buddhist knows that given enough time and patience, they will feel: magic, excitement, elation, numbness, boredom, and pain. None of these states should be clung to. None of these states describes who we are. It is just the natural state of human existence to feel them and watch them go.
Then feel the next thing... and watch that go. You don't need to wait for anything. You don't need to pray. You just take each moment as it comes... and watch it go. And don't worry... another moment will be come along soon after to take the previous moment's place.
And
that is what I love about Buddhism. It's so sensible. It gives such meaning to our lives as we perceive them, without trying to grasp and make sense of the unknown. But I like the unknown also. And that's why I'm not Buddhist, or Christian, or Hindu, or any other religion completely. I just take them at face value, parts of the whole of this world, and then realize that because of that, I can never believe that just one is completely right. They are all here, and therefore relevant in some way, and I take from them what
I perceive as relevant, and leave the rest for those that find the separate religions relevant as a whole.
Phew. I'll stop just short of novel length, thank you!
See ya!