Evidently you not only have not experienced this, but you can't even accept that this condition exists.
You are seriously mistaken. I spent years in chronic depression, found that meds were only marginally helpful, and was often oppressed by suicidal thoughts, which I CHOSE not to act on; and so of course I am personally interested in the question of whether the chemical imbalance, or whatever it is, can get so bad that "there isn't any choice" anymore. I find that survivors of serious attempts (as opposed to cry-for-help pseudo-attempts) find their decision, in retrospect, as inexplicable as those left behind by people who successfully suicide, although not in any apparently "strong" state of suffering. I am not saying that it is
logically impossible for your position (that there is some
compelling causal explanation) to be correct; just that it is seriously non-obvious that there is anything correct about it, so that I have to wonder why you thought it a good example.
No will "freely" chooses anything. Every choice is CAUSED to occur by a combination of influences.
Here you go again. In the electron case, more clearly than in the suicide case, we are talking about "choices" for which no
material influence is the cause, or, as you were willing to concede earlier, there is
no apparent reason (nothing in the observable universe). So if there is some influence that does cause it, it is "free" in the sense of being independent from the material influences.
There can be no such a thing as choosing what you don't want MORE than choosing something else.
If the only cause is that the will, itself, "wants it more", and no cause
why the will wants it more except... it just does, well that is what we mean to say the will is "free".
Okay lets not go overboard. A loophole does exist, and it is possible to escape Bell's theorem (hence the possibility of a superdeterministic theory remains).
Superdeterminism, in Bell's sense, most definitely DOES require abandoning the theory that the present position of the material particles is sufficient to determine what happens next; instead, everything is determined by something "hidden". Von Neumann's proof of course does not exclude every variety of "hidden variables" theory, just the simplistic ones. Here is the easiest, and least satisfactory, way out: some Hindu thinkers speculate about the
Akasha or "crystal chronicle" in which every event past, present, and future is written down, which is present NOW, and can be accessed from anywhere; it is just very difficult to get a peek. So we can have a theory in which there is only "one" law of physics, namely: "The whole sequence of events is thus: [huge HUGE
HUGE information dump]." There could be no necessity for any regularities or patterns in the Akasha (as Hume said, tomorrow could be the day the sun starts rising in the west); if there are any, it is just that God (who wrote it all in one writing) happens to fancy regularities.
Bell regarded a theory in which information travels backward in time (the future is not only "present" now, but actually has effects on the now) to be "spooky" and repugnant, so he was trying to work out something like Bohm's "implicate order" where everything is determined by some structure that is not at all like a space-time geometry, from which space-time is an "emergent property"; instead of "one" law ("this is it") there would be a number of basic principles from which the structure of the Akasha could be inferred. The point I was stressing earlier is that nobody has made this work; the point I would stress now is that this is not salvaging the theory "The present distribution of material particles is sufficient to determine what follows" but rather is abandoning it.
What would stop a billion dollar true-A.I. from committing suicide? Or making just as many mistakes as we make? We assume that an A.I. would be this quantum leap in efficiency, but what if it just feels overwhelmed by all the "possibilities" like most real people?
This is my point. A "real" A.I. with free will (in my sense) would be no better off than we are.
I actually have very little problem with thinking in "zero causal" terms.
OK. I don't think non-causality is likely to be true, but need to acknowledge that there is no
logical necessity for causality; it is just a habit of our thought-process.
A lightning has just as much a chance of striking the good, as it does the wicked. I don't believe in "karma" or pop-culture versions of religion. Good things happen to bad people, and bad things happen to good people, more often then not.
As for the "why" questions behind our existence, it's just like asking "why" a painter paints? Or why a poet writes? God, creates. And that's just the way it is.
I find it emotionally easier to accept that the universe is full of both good and bad if God doesn't "make" anything happen, but "lets" his creations act freely; I cannot change what is bad, only decide to do what is right from where I stand.
I recently re-read Dostoyevsky's
Brothers Karamazov. There was a passage where Ivan was talking about a nobleman hunting a little naked boy for sport, the dogs tearing the boy to pieces, and how little it does to make it right to imagine "HA HA, that evil noble will be tortured forever and ever!" (I agree with rodger on this much: that thought doesn't comfort me at all) or to imagine "The little boy will get eternal joy in heaven": here I disagree with rodger and agree with Ivan K, who says "That does not change anything; his moments of agony will, forever, be what they are." I do not like the ending that was tacked on to the book of Job: sorry about your kids all getting slaughtered for nothing, but here, have some NEW kids, everything better now? "Sorry kid, that I cut your balls off, but here, have a pony!"
If you leave out the notion of a God who acts with "intentions", and deliberately causes each and every evil thing that happens, then this need to insist that every evil thing will turn out to be a good thing disappears. There are good things, and there are evil things, it's all a package deal, and which you participate in is entirely up to you.