In my case, my belief in Christianity closed my mind but certain negative Christian doctrine, certain contradictions among the doctrines and my need to be honest with myself burst open the closed doors.
That's to be expected Oat.
The strongest influences on our mind will dictate what we choose to believe or not believe.
In my case the strongest influence is the idea that God is eventually going to transform all of the negative things that happen into something better that they happened.
I believe God will do this through Jesus Christ.
Many do not.
I think that's because that idea is not the strongest infuence on their mind.
This link explains why I think like I do.
THE PURPOSE OF EVIL - A.P. Adams
evil.html
Dr. Leslie Weatherhead (author of THE CHRISTIAN AGNOSTIC)
wrote
“God’s purposes are so vast and glorious, beyond all guessing now, that when they are achieved and consummated, all our sufferings and sorrows of today, even the agonies that nearly break our faith, the disasters that well nigh overwhelm us, shall, seen from that fair country where God’s age long dreams come true, bulk as little as bulk now the pieces of a broken toy upon a nursery floor, over which,
thinking that all our little world was in ruins, we cried ourselves to sleep.”
I LOVE THAT QUOTE