Who is this God/head that you worship? To me the father is the spirit of life, and Jesus is a man (Like us) who was graced with the Holy Spirit, or rather the love and wisdom of God, who I believe to be existence or Life itself.
You are so close here to the Truth it amazes me. I will give you the answer, but, first a little story about me.
I'll keep this as short as possible. Let me say first that I have experienced what is referred to as Enlightenment, Spiritual Awakening, Kundalini, or what I call the True "realization of Providence". Anyone else claiming to have had the experience had better have a very bizarre and utterly "cosmic" tale to tell. They also must tell of the intense preparation and Divine guidance from the True Holy Spirit of a very feminine nature who exists in all of us. Truly Enlightened people are chosen, no one can receive it any other way. I did not ask for it, nor did I meditate, nor am I a religious person. I never went to church, nor do I now. I have always been a believer, and prayed all my life for God to reveal himself to me.
Providence did just that in 2003. I'll make this quick. I have received messages from what I know now to be the True Holy Spirit since childhood, but, I really began receiving them frequently at age 40. The very short of it is the communication came in the form of "thought transmissions", not voices, and were coming from inside me from a very "Female" source. She revealed that I would know who she was when the time came. I was informed that I would be given a single "gift". That gift was interpretation. I had to earn it myself, however, and that involved gaining knowledge of Truth, and when I did, she would confirm it through an utterly cosmic "rush" of energy. She revealed that certain things were going to happen in my life as proof of Her existence, followed by a "final confirmation" when I was prepared and ready. Everything She informed me would happen did. I had to believe this because She revealed things that I could not even imagine would happen, so I could not have been thinking these thoughts myself.
Shortly thereafter, I was awakened to an unbelievable vision. I won't detail it, but here is what I learned and saw.
1. Heaven involves the planets. The Mormons are right. We becomes "stars" with our own planet and a feeling that surpasses any orgasm one could ever have. Unbelievable bliss. I didn't see those 1000 wives, but, I did have a feeling of joy and energy that I cannot describe.
2. An "out of body" experience which horrified me. It involved the Jesus story. I was taken into space, and informed that I existed in everyone, everywhere throughout history, and asked where I wanted to go. After answering that I wanted to go back and be Jesus at His crucifixion, I was told "No, you can't go there. I did not happen that way. Something's wrong. I then saw a single vision. A literal "burning sphere" that I immediately knew was earth. I also realized that I was suspended in the "outer darkness" staring at this literal "lake of fire". It was horrifying to think that I was being left behind for eternity, but I knew then that I absolutely had to figure out the Truth concerning the whole Jesus thing.
So, for the next year and a half I spent nearly every waning moment studying all the subjects. Every religion, pagan and mythologies as well. I studied history, biology, chemistry, and went through the process of gaining Truths, which were confirmed by the female presence guiding me. The process of being "born again" is far, far different from what is taught in the churches, as is nearly every other doctrine or dogma of the various Abrahamic faiths.
To make this as short as possible, one day in 2003, I finally received this "final confirmation". Standing in my friend's house after a golf outing, he left, and I was standing there when suddenly I felt this tremendous rush of energy, and a feeling of Love I cannot describe. Then, the light came down, seemingly through the roof, and not unlike you see in the movies or tv. Here's the quick of it.
A voice came down and said "Steve, we know everything you have ever done, said, or thought so have at". Immediately, It all came to me, and I was so humiliated I started bawling my eyes out. I wasn't being judged, I was judging myself! And, it is the most humiliating experience you could ever imagine. Then, the voice came again, "but Steve, there is no one who can forgive like your Dad and Mom, is there?. The Mercy of Providence is the greatest relief and happiness you can imagine. To make this quick, here is a few things revealed to me at this "final confirmation".
1. Salvation - We are all saved, eventually. Everyone, because we all exist as One Spirit. The Cosmic Christ Spirit which Jesus possessed as a man is the very androgynous duality of unity of our Divine Parent. We cannot fathom their essence, or know exactly "what" They are, but, we can know "who" They are, if we Truly seek them. Jesus knew Them, and possessed what He called the "fullness", but, worshiping Jesus as God, or making Him an equal part of an all boys club of a trinity, or believing all the stories that make Him out to be anything other than what He was is blasphemy. He was what He said, "the way, the Truth, and the Life".
After I was informed these things, I was granted the gift of the Holy Spirit of the Divine Mother, the One who leads you to the Father through Jesus, but only through His Word, as He was not the Word in John 1:1. Study, and understand His Word, not all exclusive to four redundant gospels. Find them all if you can, because He served up the "good wine" last, which is the main point of the "water to wine" story.
The gift I received from Her is a Word, not a "name". She is the Word, and that Word is Wisdom. You can call Her Mom if you like. The Father is also known as Word, that Word is Truth. Providence is not only unfathomable, They are also unnameable.
Finally I will say that the gift of interpretation did indeed come to me, although, the Truth when presented, is contrary to accepted teachings handed down over the years by blind, ignorant men, then puked out on pulpits every Sunday. The billions of lost sheep will never Truly know Jesus, because it is the Holy Spirit of the Mother who grants Her Wisdom which then leads you to Jesus the Christ(anointed One), and She is not even acknowledged by the churches, who blasphemously call Her a "ghost", the spirit of a dead person. If one does not know Wisdom, he cannot know Truth, vice versa. Therefore, since Jesus was the "anointed One", knowing both, it would be wise to Truly listen to His Word, and steer clear of what others said about Him.
To answer your question, The True Providence is the Creative Spirit, both male and female as is written in Genesis 1. The Father who Jews, Christians and Muslims worship is not the same Father Jesus acknowledged and worshiped as His Father.
If you would like evidence from Scripture concerning anything I wrote, I will gladly provide it for you. This has gotten a bit lengthy. Sorry
peace
steve eden
