Sounds great, though claiming it as yours is prideful... the issue is, you are in denial of the first word in the golden rule: 'DO'. The seeing that you are in need of is not by watching, the seeing is by doing. It takes two to DO. Your meditation is to NOT 'DO', and though I know that you see something by it, it is destroying you. Now, see someone by 'DO'-ing: Tao with others. Take responsibility for your actions by checking your actions with the golden rule: past, present, and future. With that you can see something that you DO NOT currently see. Dance with God, DO NOT insist that God dance for you... do not be drugged with that alone, because it is not you.
Zen offers something you might find insightful, it says "Sitting quietly, doing nothing, spring comes and the grass grows by itself".
It is a wrong assessment that you dance with God, it is more correct to say there is only dancing. In this, there is a comm
union, but you are restricted to mere conversation, relation. What I try to show is a far deeper sharing, but you remain on the surface, arguing the periphery to be more meaningful than the depths available.
If I can forgive you for your actions, I can sure as hell forgive you for your words. Listen to your words, and "DO". Don't be a perceiving watcher... DO. Reality is not to be perceived... reality is to "DO", but in the concert with others (and, cacaphony). Don't give a rip for reality... reality will rip. Give a rip for others... as you believe yourself will not rip.
I have not asked for your forgiveness, how pretentious of you!
Does nature cede to us when we try to grow food? We try to choose a particular favorite, and we ignore all other possibilities, only concentrating on this mono-culture. Nature doesn't permit this type of small thinking, this type of tediousness, it wants diversity, freshness. What does it do? It attacks our crops, so we fight back and spray it with chemicals which harm us as much as nature. This is the way of things, everything has a right to its own way, and if you do not respect that, you will end up suffering yourself. You express the ideal, that if something is considered perfect, everything which is less should be dropped. Nature itself provides evidence that our rationale for perfection is far less than ideal.
I simply accord with nature, I insist on my own individuality and I permit others theirs. Where that comes in contact for gain, it is beautiful, but where nothing is gained it is dropped.
If you wish to know me, then DO as I DO. If you wish to know God, then DO as God does.
I do not wish to know you, you are far too narrow minded. I wish to show you yourself, because you do not know how expansive your being is, truly.
God loves, I am an expression of that love, you still do not know it.