Do your parents tell you to stay, and you don't want to? Reminds me of the Stephen King 'Misery'.
I am unsure how this relates to anything.
First time? False. Your words, just a sentence or two ago: "Firstly, for me, time is false..."
Again these are unrelated.
When I say time doesn't exist, I mean to say for me there is no past or future, all is a continuous now. Memories are thoughts arising now which we attach to, dreams or hopes or even just plans and indeed fears are all just more thoughts relating to our idea of future.
'For the first time' is a turn of phrase, I certainly remember what life was like before this gift, I would say that was closer to death though, mere survival.
Yes, I know what you suggest. You say you value death. I also read what you seek for yourself, and if you were that frank person, I know what you said and did in a few events where I interacted with you. You say life and death are two sides to the same coin, but if someone sacrifices time with you and requests you to sacrifice a moment, that person will see you differently than the way you see yourself.
Of course, the mind projects constantly.
Yes Truth full religion begins when we are willing to sacrifice for the sake of Truth for others... and Loving religion begins when we are willing to sacrifice for the sake of love for others. Timely religion begins when we are willing to sacrifice for the sake of patience for others. Faith religion begins when we are willing to sacrifice for the sake of faith for others. Trust religion begins when we are willing... you get the idea. If you have sacrificed to have truth, love, patience, and faith for an other, then you have certainly sacrificed your own pursuit for Truth, love, patience, faith, enlightenment, etc... from others.
Is this what you think you do?
This isn't sacrifice at all, you want others to think a certain way about you. You want to control those around you because it proves to yourself you matter.
True sacrifice is as Jesus said on the cross 'I commend my spirit to you', yet Jesus has waited until the last moment. You have said you also enjoy Islam, a true Muslim is exactly this, one who has died as an individual, as something separate and lives as the divine. This is what the very word means: to surrender (to God).
If you act for your own benefit, or even pride yourself on how you think you treat others, you are still living as ego.
I am willing to trust and have faith in a zombie that believes differently than me, so that he may learn a lesson, or that I may learn... with time.
If you truly want to learn something, look deeply at this 'I', what is its nature? Know it is just another thought, just as the body is a phenomenon in consciousness so too are all thoughts, these are all objective realities. Find out the true subject and stay as that, now simply watch the mind and body and world, aloof because none touches you. Now go about your day staying as this, letting everything happen as it must. This is the mindfulness of Buddha, go on reminding yourself all that arises is apart from you.
An amazing thing happens, you become more open to everything, there is such love that floods for it all. You won't have expected it, but the ego is such a constricting mechanism, always living on comparison, judgment, but now you see these are all just more thoughts. Gradually more and more is revealed as you rest as this, things come spontaneously as needed, life itself picks you up and carries you.
All the religious founders have ever been doing is to tell us to utterly let go, the death of the ego is the birth of the real you, you simply live now as love itself. Not attached love, not love that you feel for others, these are all very low by comparison. You are love manifest, as it is said God is love unmanifest, you simply live as that.