Yes, you trusted your own power of reasoning against that of someone else ...
Well, yes and no. I could argue that my powers powers of reasoning led me
away from the truth in the first place. I’d have done better to stay and dig deeper, rather than go looking elsewhere. That’s the received wisdom of the Traditions.
In my experience, few people exercise ‘reason’ as a discipline. They confuse ‘reason’ and ‘opinion’. And too often ‘reasoning’ is quite shallow, serving the ego’s agenda. They justify themselves by criticising me or other Christians rather than actually argue the point I am making. As if a ‘bad Catholic’ is proof of anything.
What I found in the Perennial Tradition was reasoned insight (with some notable reservations), and in René Guénon (Sufi) especially, a rigorous and penetrative intellect, if somewhat cold and critical. Frithjof Schuon’s (Sufi) writings are the more lyrical (but some of his assertions, with regard to Christianity, are very weakly founded) and I would encourage everyone to have a go at reading him. Marco Pallis (Tibetan Buddhist) I hold in high esteem, and I had the honour of seeing Martin Lings (Sufi) speak twice before he died.
What I found in the theology of the Church (in which metaphysics, theology and philosophy are all one) is a compelling exegesis of Scripture and faith. It’s reasoned, rational and logical.
There is a Church document called
Fides et Ratio which begins:
"Faith and reason are like two wings on which the human spirit rises to the contemplation of truth... "
I guess we all go through the phase of 'doubt' sooner or later, if one is serious enough with his pursuit.
Reasoning oneself to God is only the start of the journey. Reasons are sensible consolations of the mind, but the journey in Faith takes one into the Mystery of the Divine, and in so doing carries one beyond the powers of the reasoning faculty. Reasoning then becomes secondary. As Anselm said, ‘theology is faith seeking understanding’.
The act of faith is necessarily a ‘step into the dark’, but the ego-oriented western mind needs to be convinced
before it will believe. It needs ‘proof’, it needs to be ‘sold’. It’s a consumer mindset which is a tragic disability when it comes to the Way.
... I question the people who were born into Christianity and never questioned their faith ...
Really? Sometimes I envy their certitude. Some would say it’s common sense. Christianity is not a knowing, which is a natural gnosis, it’s a way of being, a supernatural gnosis. Faith is not in knowing but in being known.
St Bonaventure outlined the ascent of the soul into God in the following a series of steps:
1: On the steps of Ascension into God and on the sight of Him through His vestiges in the Universe.
2: On the Sight of God in His vestiges in this Sensible World.
3: On the Sight of God through His Image marked on Natural Powers.
(Here we’ve reached the limit of the physical faculty, including reasoning.)
4: On the Sight of God in His Image reformed by Gratuitous Gifts.
5: On the Sight of the Divine Unity through its Primary Name, which is Being.
6: On the Sight of the Most Blessed Trinity in His Name, which is The Good.
7: On the Mental and Mystical Excess, in which Rest is given to the Intellect, by an Affection Passing wholly into God through Excess.
(This last is the
urgründ, or ‘ground of being’ in which all distinction – self and Other – disappears, according to Meister Eckhart. The Eastern traditions recognise it as the Void, or the real Tao, ‘that cannot be spoken’.)
I realize this notion bothers a lot of believers, but for me, Jesus being God himself (the Trinity) or not, is unimportant.
It is for me. As C.S. Lewis said, He is either mad, bad, or the Son of God. The promise and hope of Christ can only be fulfilled in the Trinity. If Our Lord is not God, St Paul saw, then our faith is in vain.
If one believes in him because of his performance of miracles, isn't the belief based on the 'might' he's had, and not 'love' he's shown?
That depends on how one views miracles.
The skeptic will say that miracles are impossible, moreover they are simply gratuitous displays of power, a trick to fool the mob, or the invention of the scribe to exalt his subject.
The common exoteric view of the miracle of the man born blind, is its just that. There was this man, he was born blind, but now he can see. Isn’t God wonderful?
The common esoteric view of the miracle is that is speaks of the opening of the inner eye; the man was spiritually blind, but has had his spiritual sight restored.
So the esoterist will claim that the miracles recounted in Scripture never actually happened ‘in real life’, they are literary devices, they are metaphors, using physical terms to describe spiritual concepts.
There is an ancient and, I think, universal concept: As above, so below.
This concept is realised, actualised, in Christianity in no uncertain terms. That’s the point of the miracles, they are not metaphors, they are the ‘above’ state or condition actualised in the ‘below’. So the man born blind was actually born
physically blind. And his physical sight was restored. It’s not a gratuitous display of power, it’s not some strategem to convince the unbeliever, it’s a demonstration of what Our Lord is all about, what the Mission and the Message is all about.
Christianity is not a dualist religion, it’s not ‘body v soul’ despite the shallow interpretations of Scripture and the ever-present tendency of a profane Hellenic influence to render it that way. (This is why we disputed with the ‘gnosis so-called’ (cf 1 Timothy 6:20) of ‘the Gnostics’, gnosticism is utterly dualist and places an infinite number of impediments between the union of God and man.) It’s an holistic religion, in which its essence is realised ‘through and through’ or ‘all in all’.
Our Lord came in the flesh (Gk: sarx) to heal the rift between body (Gk: soma) and soul (Gk: pneuma). The body is the symbol of the union of sarx and pneuma, it’s a broken symbol, but it is the most incredible thing — higher than than angels — because in the body, essence and substance, spirit and matter, all dualities, all dichotomies are resolved.
This is what most people fail to see when they question the miracles. They cannot stretch their mind to encompass the enormity of what is being said, what is being portrayed, what is being lived out in front of them.
Our Lord’s mission and His message was actualised in concrete physicality; the metaphor is not enough, it has to be real, or it remains a concept without actuality. A theory. Such a Christianity is little more than romantic idealism. God just becomes the exemplar of everything we think of as ‘nice’. Christ is an extension of ourselves.
The man born blind was as blind physically as he was blind spiritually,
that’s the point. And Christ healed that blindness, because it’s not a case of either/or, it’s ‘this and this’ ... the world is one, if something is the case in the higher realm, it is actualised in the lower.
The Way of Christ is not ‘the flight of the alone to the Alone’ of Plotinus; the body is not some temporary impediment we are stuck with, that the soul must abandon at the earliest possible opportunity; the world was not created by some ridiculous demi-god; nor is it the misbegotten and aborted foetus of some gnostic syzygic coupling.
The world is a theophany.
The body is the means by which we are ‘really’ and ‘actually’ present in the world. And Christ dealt with the real and actual, be it physical or spiritual.
So in the unfolding of the Revelation, it is right and proper (and for our sakes, necessary), that the Drama of man’s reconciliation is played out in real life, and not merely in abstract concepts.
The Life of Christ is the Sublime actualised in the mundane, the encounter with Christ is not something that happens in some abstract, aetherial realm, it’s not a myth, not a metaphor ... it’s real life, because God is the Way, the Truth and the Life (John 14:6), and “no man cometh to the Father, but by me” — which means we do not get to God by pursuing abstract concepts, but through concrete realities.
Note: Our Lord says no man gets to God but through me — now that can only be one of two things:
A blasphemy of monstrous proportion, or
Christ is God.
That’s it. There is no other possibility. You read John 14:6 and you either go for it, or walk away.
Which one of his books reflects his idea of Paul's conversion as you mentioned?
You can read his essay
online.
My theory (so far) is, after his death, Jesus' spirit merged into God (became one with God) and used telepathy to communicate to people on earth from above. If his telepathic power caused over five hundred people to see the image of Jesus, that is indeed a miracle and he is indeed divine, and that explains the Cambrian explosion of Christianity after his death.
Well, if you were paying me tutor’s fees
I might be inclined to take you to task, on the basis that might not our theories be just a means of relativising Scripture, a way of reducing it to make it more palatable?
May I offer you this, from an essay by Jean Borella, a Catholic Perennialist?
If there is, in fact, a resurrection of the flesh, this is because the divine principle, which is immanent to the world in the very substance of matter, cannot but, by virtue of Its own Transcendence, tear the physical body out of the cosmic order to which it clings to manifest the very transcendence of the flesh when it has been truly indwelt by the Spirit... The Spirit dwells in the world, but the world is less real and less perfect than the Spirit. At the very least there is a degree of the world — precisely the one which we are experiencing — whose imperfection crushes us and leads to death. Who can deny it? The truth of the Spirit's presence in the world demands that, under pain of being only a formula of purely theoretical expediency, the world's very reality give proof of this presence. And how could it, unless by a transfiguration in which the spiritual and glorious nature of the flesh itself finally appear? This operative and saving gnosis of the world is just what Christ's Resurrection realizes... It is this which obliges us to look at the created through new eyes. It is this which overturns our vision of the cosmos. (Jean Borella: Gnosis and Anti-Christian Gnosis). Follow this
link, it's down the page.)
This is where I take the modern pseudo-Christian apologist to task. Too many modern denominations are just so much ‘new wine in old bottles’, watered-down wine at that, they attempt to explain Christianity in terms of the world they know, rather than enter into the Mystery of the world as it is ... and miss the point that in Our Lord, the world has been transformed.
There’s a bloody awful film called ‘The Passion of the Christ’. It’s a load of rather masochistic and sentimental tosh. If there is anything I would extract from the film however, it’s one (fictitious) moment. Our Lord is carrying His cross to Golgotha, and He falls, and His mother rushes to His side. “See,” he says ironically, being the flayed and bloody wreck of a man He now is, “I make the world anew.”
Perhaps that line is not so ironic, after all.
You mentioned your critique of Christians who accept their faith without investigation. But really, it’s not necessary to interrogate God. Half the time, we see ‘as though through a glass, and darkly’, because we don’t want to see the light. It puts too much of an obligation on us, and modern egoic man hates obligation. And, like I said, modern man tends to think God owes him something, that his condition is all God's fault, not his own ...