Well, I grew up with the Gospel stories, as you do, Christmas, Easter, at home, in school, some religious education, contact with a Christian youth group as an adolescent. My family moved across three continents before I was twenty, we lived in Muslim, Christian, and Buddhist majority countries. I have Jewish in-laws and cousins (from a different family line). I read lots of different religious scriptures and commentaries in my late teens and early twenties, cover-to-cover, and discussed the puzzling parts with people who were into it, learned and self-taught. I tend to respect the depth and breadth of a good scholar. I don't have many original thoughts, there are footsteps in the snow wherever I go, figuratively speaking. I like it when someone can tell me the story of what led people down this or that track. It gives me more options, not having to expend my life time mapping from scratch.
Truths I have discovered about the gospels: That they are truly old texts, with all that entails, fascinating things to learn about them, interesting concepts to explore, in the texts, in the commentaries, in the traditions. And that when I read them as mystical texts, sometimes I get a moment of recognition across the millennia, like a familiar smell, like a nod of acknowledgement. This tends to happen not with the miracle accounts or the resurrection, but with the parables and teachings about the kingdom, such as Luke 20-21, or the parable of the treasure in the field or the pearl, or the yeast and the dough. I find it amazing that other sages across history found very similar words - this tells me that they are onto something deeply human, something we all share, which lies beyond any creed or world view or belief, or birth place or epoch. So, to me, the Gospels, like all religious scriptures, contain these treasures which I sometimes come across. I do not claim that what rings true to me must be some kind of absolute Truth applicable to every human being.
Still, scholars are worth listening to, in my opinion. Not to follow them blindly, but to draw on the knowledge they preserve, pass on, and add to.