Wow, I vaguely remember posting this years ago. Since then I have abandoned my conversion attempt.
I do not feel an outsider can actually convert unless they know someone who is already within the Jewish community.
I also think that it would be much easier to convert if you are converting for marriage. Judaism isn't some weekly religious service you attend, it's a life style, a way of living.
I have abandoned my belief in God as well and I feel much happier for it.
I am not down on people who do believe, but I don't feel I can believe without fooling myself or I would have to put up blinders.
I do, however, practice meditation through non-mystical buddhism to clear my mind and help me refocus.
Just responding to update,
Kwind
I do not feel an outsider can actually convert unless they know someone who is already within the Jewish community.
I also think that it would be much easier to convert if you are converting for marriage. Judaism isn't some weekly religious service you attend, it's a life style, a way of living.
I have abandoned my belief in God as well and I feel much happier for it.
I am not down on people who do believe, but I don't feel I can believe without fooling myself or I would have to put up blinders.
I do, however, practice meditation through non-mystical buddhism to clear my mind and help me refocus.
Just responding to update,
Kwind