Only one time when I was 23 have I heard a voice, and I think it was Yahshua's. I had sunk in the darkest pit I'd ever been in and cried out "Why Father? All I ever wanted to do was love. Then a voice came into my head and said "I know that , you have know idea how much he want's to give you." Then something kicked out my heart from the inside and I knew I had to read my bible. The verse it opened up to was For you have forsaken your rock. Then over to II Tim showing how people would be in the last days. Then it bounced me around Jer and Rev and giving me understanding about Babylon and that everyone and everything I loved would be destroyed. Then the next verse I flipped to was in Jer and said Do not weep or wail for them, or offer any plea or petition, for I will not listen to you. I was terrified and tried to warn people and got locked up. I got back into Christianity, but it didn't make sense. I met a guy at work one day and found out about the name Yahweh and a group that claimed to be the truth. Was baptised on Pentecost, had some more crazy experiences, saw a bunch of angels or malaks, a being on a white horse, some wheels within wheels and a bunch of other crazy stuff. Usually I get things from scriptures by flipping them open, only when I'm really seriously looking for an answer though. You might say, Well, you can get meaning from anything. People who say that don't know the bible, it could have opened to the Ark was 10 cubits, or Lamech begot.... But the one time about 7 years ago, I had turned back after that group proved to be a lie and some things happened and I was sick of it all and was about ready to blow my brains out. I thought I'll see what if he has anything to say to me. It opened to a verse in "With a little wrath I have hid my face from you, but my loviing kindness I will never take from you". I've been searching for answers my whole life, studying religion, psychology, philosophy, science trying to find answers. Nothing totally answers everything that happened. So the just crazy doesn't cover it. I've just been mad and avoided him because of the hell it caused me. Then in the last couple of years things I saw have taken place, and now as I just turned 40 some things have started happening again. I don't stray too far, but I sin because I just want to live my life in peace and when I get really heavy into scripture is when the freaky things have happened and what all the pieces seem to be adding up to is something I don't want to do. Yeah, you maybe right, I maybe crazy