path_of_one
Embracing the Mystery
I think most people function in a sort of bi-polar manner- that is, we all have "highs" and "lows." Bi-polar people experience this to an extreme that is disruptive in their lives. But if you look at the symptoms, probably everyone experiences "highs" where they feel really good, optimistic, high sex drive, etc. and "lows" where they feel kind of crappy. I think it has to be pretty severe to be clinically bi-polar, from what I understand. It seems like the process of proselytizing and those sorts of beliefs (i.e., everyone is going to hell unless I save them, the world is ending, etc.) would lend itself to creating a more bi-polar roller coaster of emotions in a person.
Loading up on fear and guilt (I'm not a good person, I'm worthless but God loves me anyway, people I love will go to hell or be permanently ended after this life if I can't convince them to join the church, etc.) and then getting optimistic (but I'm a child of God! I can fix this!) and then going out and acting on that (knock, knock!) and then being rejected and realizing no, you won't fix it (is that because I'm not good enough? Or because they are just destined for hell/ending?).
Seems like the cycle and belief would create the imbalance, rather than the other way 'round. But who knows...
I really think part of it is a superiority/inferiority thing. That is, people generally feel inferior- afraid and guilty. I've noticed some churches really guilt-trip people and play on the fear thing a lot. There's a lot of "you sinner, you worthless" going on. So, to boost self-esteem (because we all need it or we get really depressed), the answer is to feel superior to everyone who is not in the church. "I may be a worthless worm and a sinner, but I figured out The Answer and need to share it with all these people who are not only worthless worms, but also lost!" This is why many of these folks find people who are strong in their faith but not in agreement to be threatening and uncomfortable- because this threatens their fragile sense of self-esteem and identity. If you strip away the "I'm right, you're wrong," all you have left is "I'm guilt-ridden and fearful." Who wants to be that?
Loading up on fear and guilt (I'm not a good person, I'm worthless but God loves me anyway, people I love will go to hell or be permanently ended after this life if I can't convince them to join the church, etc.) and then getting optimistic (but I'm a child of God! I can fix this!) and then going out and acting on that (knock, knock!) and then being rejected and realizing no, you won't fix it (is that because I'm not good enough? Or because they are just destined for hell/ending?).
Seems like the cycle and belief would create the imbalance, rather than the other way 'round. But who knows...
I really think part of it is a superiority/inferiority thing. That is, people generally feel inferior- afraid and guilty. I've noticed some churches really guilt-trip people and play on the fear thing a lot. There's a lot of "you sinner, you worthless" going on. So, to boost self-esteem (because we all need it or we get really depressed), the answer is to feel superior to everyone who is not in the church. "I may be a worthless worm and a sinner, but I figured out The Answer and need to share it with all these people who are not only worthless worms, but also lost!" This is why many of these folks find people who are strong in their faith but not in agreement to be threatening and uncomfortable- because this threatens their fragile sense of self-esteem and identity. If you strip away the "I'm right, you're wrong," all you have left is "I'm guilt-ridden and fearful." Who wants to be that?