They are merely two ends of the same energy, when it is active the energy might be light or love, when it is static it might be darkness or apathy. I uphold that how you use it is important, things like hate or fear will cause you to be entrusted with less energy for instance, a consequence of our free will being misused as you point out. The question is, what is the nature of the energy itself?
You are correct though, I do not uphold any attribute for God, for me God is the Source of all attributes, yet attributeless itself. I do not uphold any particular belief system, but certainly Buddhism is one I have learned much from. I have also enjoyed many in your own line - particular Baal Shem - but have no bias for any exoteric school...
To be perfectly true, I also do not agree with even the esoteric disjointedness, but at least this I can understand: it is easier to use exoteric beliefs to bring the student closer to the inner world, already there is a certain trust that can be molded if they are at least a little open.