You're questions are always too open for a reasonable answer, and you bring a lot of preconceptions into the discussion that are self-evident to you, but not to many other here.
Everyone here wants to discuss religion, but for me, you give no common ground to start from.
May I ask a question to start from. You were bullied into Christianity and rejected it as a 19 year old, is it, according to you, conceivable that your experience, emotional connection and questionable(?) source or learning makes your opinions on Christianity as a whole, as NJ would say, suspect?