You are the second person to say this. So what is it that I have 'got' exactly? Because apparently I am too dense to see it.
I am not fine with what I know. That was my point. Not that we are going to come to some grand conclusion. The conclusion for me is still very vague.
You know what I like about you the most? That you are so genuine about your process, even when it isn't giving you the answers you desire. I find that charming and very human, thanks for that!
I know that in everyday language this stuff sounds esoteric and maybe even nonsensical. When I say you've got it, I was referring to the fact that you had come to an end of the ready made explanations and simply don't know what the hell I'm talking about. When a person is in that state, and they accept the fact that they don't know, in that moment there is the possibility of going beyond the extensive storehouse of ideas into something you may not have ever seen before, something totally new. In Zen, for example, a novice monk is given a nonsensical question to answer, and any answer he gives to the master is all wrong. It is frustrating and drives the novice out of his mind, and in the silence that follows, the crazy question, what they call a "Koan" becomes completely clear. But you see, without expending all that mental energy on solving the unsolvable, he comes to the place where discursive thought, the kind of thinking wherein you hold a talk with yourself, ceases. In that cessation of thought the mind perceives things directly. But it cannot do so unless the thinking part is quiet for a bit.
When you say you don't know, that is when you are the closest to understanding great things.
It's my way of being playful to share these things with my friends, so it's okay if it seems nutty.
If we shadows have offended, think but this and all is mended
That you have but slumbered here, while these visions did appear
And this weak and idle theme, yielding no more than a dream...
