If the greatest minds, authors, prophets, and religions have not been able to satisfy you in this regard....maybe like me ya just choose to do what you can in this life, get the most out of it, and not waste time on the next until it gets here!
The second half for me is treading lightly, we all have our carbon quota, how we tip the scales regarding society, community, helping vs hindering, it makes life easier to not make waves, we all don't need commandments and threats of hell to do good, to be good, most of the time