You sound so much like me, Cavalier. I can only tell you what works for me.
cavalier said:
I was born into a family and community of Christians very much like those you refer to. They are people who believe that they know something. Using Socrates we might say that these people are therefore not wise. Is there a problem in saying this though? I say "Is" because I really do not know. If we say that we know nothing, how can we know that they are wrong?
From the perspective of true and false, I don't have an answer. From the perspective of human relationships, no we can't say that. My criteria is cause and effect and what is really important to me. It is more important to me to maintain good relationships with the people around me than to alienate them with a fact of life they are at this point incapable or unwilling of facing. In terms of cause and effect, telling people they are not as wise as they think because Socrates said such and such will probably cause alienation.
What if these people, or at least some of them, really do know something that we don't? What if there is no octagon? What if we are blind men feeling round in the darkness but these people, as they would profess, have been given the gift of sight by the Holy Spirit?
All legitimate questions. I think the deeper question you are asking is: Is God real or not and what are the implications?
Again, I can only share what works for me. Whether or not God exists is for me unknowable. I have also talked to some of the most educated Christians around and they say we cannot prove or disprove God's existence.
This leaves me alone in the universe with the question: Who is right--the people who say to follow your heart and use your talents, or the people who say I will go to hell for disobeying the church?
I will try to explain where I am at now. The Bible says what the fruits of the Spirit are--love, joy, peace, etc. The Love Chapter in 1 Cor. 13 is a wonderful example. By being true to myself at all costs, I find myself turning into a person for whom these things come fairly naturally.
I don't feel on top of the world every minute of every day because life is not that way. Nor do I like all the people I encounter in life. But there is a peace deep down that was not there earlier in my life. It came as a result of my I commitment to be true to myself at all costs. I can be fair and respectful of the people I don't like, and when heavy times come upon me I can live in the confidence that "this too will pass."
At this point it is not important to me whether or not God exists. I feel a deep peace and assurance that if God does exist, my way of living is pleasing to him. I believe God, if God exists, is fair and loving like a parent who shows respect and unconditional love for his children. Such a God will respect the genuine attempt at living fully and joyfully by being true to myself.
If there is no God, it is still the best way for me to live. If there is no afterlife, at least I enjoyed the one life I had. If there is an afterlife, like I said, I believe God will accept me and all others.
In this way I stick with what I know. It requires considerable trust and faith to live this way. Truth and faith that the unknowable will not consume me and vent its rage on me, but is loving and fair.
Ruby