cyberpi et al...
im worried i did the unpardonable sin by denying what i knew was right (christianity) and worse off, praying to satan, and getting an answer.
i had been hearing voices telling me to turn from my path o looking at world religion and consciousness amd psychology. the voice said if you keep doing this you will burn in hell forever. i heard oter voices too, i hear people talking about me, i ave thoughts bounce around in my head.
at one time i wasmdesperate for divine help. (previous to all of this, i would feel moved by christians witnessing to me buand sometimes i tohght that i t was right and i would admit it when i was older...)
so i was wanting divine help, i also thought that satan would tell me the truth and maybwe givine me knowledge for help on a musical instruemnt, or just tell me the truth about god
so i tried playing a devil intercal on my instruemnt a perfector diminished 7th, i cant rmeember, its from a solo called "vox gabrielli) the voice of gabrielle, also in a tartini piece the devils trill
so i was high on weed at the time and overwhelmed by demonic voices and thoughts, and i thought i heard satan. i heard voices saying "we wil lgive you what you want"
i didnt want to saty yes but i wold hear a weak voice inside me say yes, i heard rage and anguish and laughing, people shouting "fool" and i eard a voice saying your soul is mine and another voice inside saying yes, i kept on wanting to say no no, but i didnt think it worked. becuase i have felt doomed ever since, andi have heard voices telling me, its too late, you are doomed, you know what you did
and when i pray to jesus i hear a voice say im sorry, go away, it too late, i cant help you, no etc