What haven't you fabricated? You even fabricated my gender.
Your whole approach to life is that of a female, you define yourself through others, my assumption was valid - you are not masculine.
Everything. You have said you are just watching, or at best: an actor.
Consequences are part of the watching, I do not avoid consequences.
I believe you, that you focus on what you can get out of others.
Wrong, this is what I go on saying to you: it isn't about what I can do for you or what you can do for me... it is about simply enjoying each others company for a time, walking together through life for a while.
I paid for college and studied to become an engineer. If you apply your mind, every day is potentially a day in class.
Ok... but colleges are not education, they are learning institutions.
Your natural behavior was a bit rude.
Elaborate, because other than your tweaking about my smoking, I do not see how you can draw this conclusion.
I disclosed to you, with my wife present, that I had made mistakes. One of those mistakes was that I had cheated on my wife. I had sex with two women, while married, without my wife ever knowing about it. I was a hypocrite, a criminal before the golden rule, dishonest before God, and I had successfully hid that from my wife. I would not have appreciated it if my wife did the same as I did, especially without my knowing it.
Yet you think you are one to talk about morals.
I know my dad had educated me once on the golden rule when I was young, but I lived a large portion of my life missing out on using the freely shared software.
You want to control, you are not interested in sharing. Even when you give, you have some ulterior motives behind it, you do not share just to share.
I had also served in the military, as a reservist in the US marine corps. For a time I believed in the lie: "We the people". I ended up in Saudi / Kuwait during the movement to oust Saddam's military from Kuwait. As a result, I saw a glimpse of a different culture, including men praying from their towers. Shortly after 9/11, I studied the qur'an. I wrote a program to compare 4 or 5 of the english translations. At that point in time I thought I knew something about the bible and christianity, having been to sunday school and church a few times. As I studied the qur'an, I started reading and studying the bible for comparison, especially the words of Jesus. Upon thinking about it, I started doing a moral review of my history, and I was embarrased and a bit ashamed to have had a few large black spots in my history of actions. What to do?
Have you ever looked into Buddhas notion of Karma? It is the very clinging to the past which affects your present karma - if you do not cling, if you practice no-mind, then Karma is no longer a factor for you. It is quite plain you are not exposed to Eastern thought though, yet I tell you it is far deeper than the Abrahamic line.
I'd say the golden rule is software... it is a software algorithm. It presents answers, and it presents a lifestyle. At the time, I really didn't like the answer that it provided. By the golden rule, my wife should know the truth, and have the opportunity to leave me if she wished, to find someone more worthy of her time and affection. I confessed it. If you think I did that for a reward, you are mistaken. My history, and I were naked, and our future vulnerable. She verbally forgave me, which helped, but I just knew that something would change as a result, and at the time I wasn't expecting anything positive. I was further wrong. For a bit we actually seemed to have some good fortune. Things just lined up, and we saw things more clearly. I had some other dark spots in my history, which I also worked on in a similar manner.
I tell you it is utterly unrelated to your actions, and simply about the fact you unburdened yourself from these actions. Yet I do not say you have forgiven yourself fully because it still comes up so much for you.
I would also say that the enlightened man drops all questions, thus your provided answers are irrelevant to him. You live your life by a particular methodology and it is exactly for this reason that I say you are not really alive - you don't respond to the present, you respond from ideas formed in the past.
You say you live by the Golden Rule, yet you will not greet anyone that you cross paths with in life, you just look at the floor and ignore everyone... for me this is an example of your hypocrisy.
It is not from those actions alone that I had the privilege of seeing a relationship with God, but it broke the ice. More importantly it changed my way of thinking, and I like the results. With the golden rule, I essentially grade my own homework, and it is a tool to grow and expand the mind.
You have no relationship with God, you just have an inventive imagination. I can say this with certainty because you deny every hint I give about finding God in your life.
I think you wish us to be unhappy. Sorry to disappoint you. I welcome you to call her to get her viewpoint. She met you, and we have talked about you and your behavior.
I do not wish you to be unhappy, I see you as being unhappy and want to do something to help the situation. I feel like that pointing at the problems, you will work on that, but I honestly felt no ties between you and your children. You and your wife were utterly separate and lacked basic flow of communication which would be expected in marriage. There is nothing like a family atmosphere in your home, although to be fair, Jesus says even that you must hate your family and yourself - you seem a good disciple.
How well do you know your children? How well do your children know you, Lunitik?
Uhh, I don't have children, I am not sure I am comfortable with being responsible for the death of another being, even if I have given them life. I am not against it, but I would not be angry if I do not have children at all.
I have told you the important software that I am running. If you wish to run it for yourself, you have that freedom.
I have no desire at all to use your software, it is utterly bug-riddled and a resource hog. I go on discussing something far more efficient, compile optimizations that would overcome your poor code quality and you ignore them all.
You do not yet have a soul, it is what is born in the second birth, the spiritual birth. This is all I go on trying to give you, but instead you try to give me ways of killing mine. I know you probably believe you have a soul already, but I sensed none in you at all. You can simply shrug off my words and go on believing, but the whole reason I went to Nashville was to enlighten you - it became obvious early on you would not be willing though, you only care about arguing. I blame myself, going there when already you had decided we are utterly different was stupid. You simply went on trying to prove how different we are...
You do not understand that all is utterly one in essence, you have missed the opportunity to know that oneness through me, I hope you find someone else you can trust.
