I tell you it is possible to not choose, because choosing like ego is a result of mind. Through the practice of meditation, this is achieved.
Now, you are perfectly correct that there is a choice to begin meditative practice. You are not choosing to war with mind though, you are not to engage in a battle with ego or anything else. Simply choose meditation and the rest takes care of itself.
This is as far as I will go with the psychology of "ego" because you are now getting into "higher plane concepts" and I have noticed that you seem particularly fond of higher plane concepts. I have little interest in higher plane concepts because they have little benefit for us in the earthly plane. The benefits of higher plane concepts are difficult to impossible to measure because higher plane concepts are about things we cannot see. You are fond of higher plane concepts and are therefore fond of things other people cannot see.
When you function of ego, you cannot do truly good acts
The question of what is "good" is subjective. People who fail to be satisfied with something "moderately good" and have to aim for "ideals" are obsessive and over-analyse the notion of goodness.
it is always something which will benefit you.
I don't see anything wrong with receiving benefits. I am, after all human. Humans need benefits to survive and sustain themselves. This is how things work in the earthly plane.
There is always a purpose, you don't simply act.
What is wrong with aiming toward the fulfilment of a purpose?
Meditation is simply taking time to sit in utter silence, doing absolutely nothing. Watching all that goes on around you, inside you, but identifying with none of it... just remaining a spectator.
It sounds like therapy. Silence is the way to allow your brain's chemistry to return to a stable balance in the midst of all the things going on in life.
Was Jesus humble, loving? He judged quite outwardly, aggressively. For me, this act is exactly hypocritical.
What you seem to be missing is that Jesus' teachings were not introduced into a social vacuum. Teachings about loving your neighbour, not being judgmental, self-righteous or hypocritical had little meaning without Jewish Law. Without Jewish Law, there is no need to judge and therefore you cannot be judgmental, self-righteous or hypocritical. This was not about spirituality, mysticism or enlightenment.
You haven't produced any convincing evidence that Jesus was an enlightenment guru and you do not seem to have done much to explore the Second Temple world. If you had, you might begin to understand how these teachings had a lot to do with Jewish Law.
Have you heard of Hillel and Shammai? Hillel and Shammai were the heads of two Pharisaic schools that had two radically different ways of thinking about Jewish Law. The former was the liberal/humanistic faction. The latter was the conservative/legalistic faction.
These two factions were in fierce opposition to each other. Many of Jesus' teachings reflected those of Hillel and it is quite likely that Jesus was actually a follower of Hillel. In other words, Jesus' teachings were unleashed into a highly political environment. Jesus was an advocate for one faction over another.
Jesus the Jew
TJ: Jesus was a rabbi on the Hillel side
There is at least one motivation for Jesus' "outburst." You labelling Jesus as "vengeful" is unhelpful and considering the highly political environment in which Jesus' ministry took place, blows it out of proportion. Jesus' behaviour and actions are consistent with other adherents of the Hillelite faction in their fierce opposition to the other side. I have little difficulty understanding why he responded in the way that he did. You wouldn't call the average person "vengeful" even if they had a sword in their hand. I doubt whether you would have called David vengeful even though he fought in so many wars. It's all because Jesus is so popular. You made Jesus seem worse than the average person.
There is however another motivation. Jesus wanted to be a martyr. He was deliberately provoking the opposing faction so that he would be killed, given to the Romans and crucified. The point of doing this, as we have seen in the last 2,000 years was to start a new religion. Jesus gave us, the Gentiles a religion. This was the purpose of his outburst.
You have stated some of his judgments to justify his actions, this is quite telling - clearly you love him so you do not want to see his flaws, you do not see him as a full person.
You clearly do not know me at all. I do not "love" Jesus. How can I possibly love him? I have never met him, unlike Peter. The best I can do is read books about him. Do Jews love their rabbis and sages? Do Muslims love Mohammed? Do scientists love Isaac Newton and Albert Einstein?
The point of Jesus' outburst was to start the journey that would lead to his martyrdom. He would be crucified and rise again. People would become so excited about what happened that they started a new religion that was about him. I was not there to see it happen and to be at the centre of it. I simply contemplate the sociological consequences of his life and sayings.
Jesus' teachings were an approach to Jewish Law. He was part of the system. It is not "I" who idealise Jesus. It is you. You are disappointed and heartbroken that he didn't live up to your ideals. I don't need a perfect Jesus. I don't require him to be flawless. What I want is a helpful way of thinking of him and your way of thinking wasn't helpful. It is you that doesn't see Jesus as a full person. You base your views on Jesus on the New Testament writings and not on the historical and social context. I have at least taken the time to examine the social and political environment in which Jesus lived to determine where he fit into that world and his "contribution."
I am more interested in Jesus' contribution to the world. Jesus was a contributor. Every culture has its heroes and contributors. The Jews had Moses, Abraham, David, Philo Judaeus, the rabbis and sages. The Greeks had Heracles, Daedalus, Theseus. They had their philosophers like Plato, Aristotle, the Stoics, etc. Contributors to the modern world are people like Charles Darwin, Thomas Edison, Albert Einstein, Isaac Newton, James Maxwell, etc.
Jesus gave the Gentiles a religion of their own. He was a contributor to interfaith.
Based on my observation of you on these forums, you seem so obsessed about higher plane concepts that anything less than your "higher plane idealisms" must be portrayed as inferior or barbaric and that is what leads you into labelling Jesus as "vengeful." It's like a bunch of extraterrestrials arriving here, looking around and saying, "Darn! What a bunch of savages!!!! Thank enlightenment we are not like them!!!!" If a bunch of extraterrestrials ever came here and tried to tell us how to live our lives, I would tell them to get off their high horse and go back into outer space where they came from.
A few weeks ago you said I had wrongly mistaken you for a "crazy mystic." You may not be as crazy about mysticism as I first thought, but you certainly seem crazy about higher plane concepts because you talk about meditation, truth and mystical onenesses and you seem quite interested in "psycho-analysing" people.
I for one do not want to be psycho-analysed on these forums. If I need counselling I will ask for a psychologist and I am not in the business of seeking counselling on these forums. I also do not want you to "psycho-analyse" Moses, Abraham, David and Jesus because I find it very unhelpful. I find it unhelpful because it is where you take an obsession with higher plane concepts a little too far. It actually seems like an insult to these people to try to "psycho-analyse" them and even disrespectful. This is not why we remember them. I would not think a biography about Isaac Newton would be written so people could "psycho-analyse" him.
Because what you said about me was inaccurate, by your own reasoning, you cannot be enlightened because you allowed your prejudices to get the better of you. When enlightened people judge people, they always have to be right. Because you were wrong, you cannot be enlightened.
Sorry, but you don't liberate by creating dependence.
It's relative. Jesus' followers were better off after he came into their lives. You could not have asked for anything better. I think that once again, your higher plane idealisms are getter the better of you here. Jesus' approach just wasn't good enough, so you had to put him down and say, "No, it wasn't good enough!!!! Jesus could have done better!!!!" You don't seem to have any concept of "good enough" that I can see. You seem to be so hard to please and satisfy.
The other thing is that Jesus didn't spend whole a lifetime there with his disciples. He died and his followers had to go on without him.
"Dependence" also implies "need," but what you think Jesus' followers needed is different to what they really needed. I am sure you would like to think that his followers needed to become enlightened. That probably wasn't what Jesus thought they needed and as far as Jesus' followers were concerned, Jesus' approach was successful. They got what they needed. Your view is just an overly pessimistic one.
You cannot taste his energy from a book, you cannot merge with his being if he is not there. You can learn plenty from a book, but you have gained nothing. This has to be understood of religion: mind is exactly the problem, and by learning you are strengthening it.
Why do I want his energy at all? I just want to understand his legacy. This is why I read books and articles from the Internet. This is how things work on the earthly plane. You seem to have given up on earthly experiences.
It's like using a microwave oven without learning how to light a fire with flint. Ok fine, I am a city-dweller and I live in a developed country. I am used to that kind of life. I just think you lose something when you pursue "more advanced" things whether it is "technology" or "higher plane experiences."
I am simply saying that the way he died, why he died is not useful at all other than to create a love for the man... it is an important device in the type of religion Christianity is, but it won't help you transcend.
The only reason why I started talking about "escaping the earthly plane" in my earlier discussions with you is the possibility of an imminent apocalypse. If there is no apocalypse, there is no need for whatever "enlightenment" you promote. We can go on living as we do now, chasing after earthly experiences for thousands of years. Even if there will be an apocalypse, I think earthly matters will still be important.
It's a bit like the Ancients in Stargate Atlantis TV series. They saw ascension as a way of escaping the Wraith. The Wraith were eating them alive and the only way out was to escape this world. Sorry for bringing science fiction into the discussion, but they are often quite helpful in seeing how these concepts may play out in the real world if they were true.